Playing With Dicks – How boyhood experiments turn into teenage degeneracy – Chapter 16

Chapter 16 – First Kiss (alternate title – The Adam Situation) – How did all us boys go so long and do so much gay shit together without even kissing?

WARNING: For patient readers only!

PLAYING WITH DICKS is a very long story tracing my entire early sexual history, and if you start reading here in the middle you’ll be missing a lot of important context. I recommend starting back from the very beginning so you’re not lost, or at least start at the recap in between chapters 10 & 11 so you know what’s going on. Click my username to find it all organized in order.

This is also an entirely true story, and I’ve included quite a bit of explanations and history to provide context between the “good parts” – so if you are expecting a barrage of wild unbelievable fantasy scenarios and non-stop sex scenes you may be a little disappointed. But if you are a patient reader and are willing to sit through my endless blabbing about my history, I promise those good parts will be worth it!

Playing With Dicks

How boyhood experiments turn into teenage degeneracy

Chapter 16 – First Kiss

Matt and Jay found out about the orgy with Clara a day or two later when they stopped by The Dungeon with me on the walk home from school and we filled them in, and for a little while they were so jealous they were almost mad at us for it. Grant told them not to worry because Clara would be back and they’d have their chance soon enough if they could actually sleep over this time, only nobody knew when that might be – a week, two weeks, a few months, who knows? All we knew was that Clara was looking forward to fooling around again just as much as we were, whenever that might be. And we were sure she’d be into fooling around with even more friends if we gave her the chance.

At first Matt didn’t even know if he should believe us because it sounded almost too far fetched to him, but Jay had read Clara a lot better hanging out with her for an afternoon and said he figured something like that might happen. We filled them in on all the details and told them how it started with with Grant convincing Clara to strip nude and masturbate with us, basically right after Matt and Jay left, and that part seemed believable enough. But the fact that it quickly escalated to her giving us all blowjobs and letting us eat her out, then the no penetration outercourse humping and even swallowing Grant’s cum – that all sounded too crazy to be true. Either way both of them were pissed off that they missed out, and insanely jealous of the rest of us. We’d done the impossible and actually convinced a girl to join our secret sex club, and Matt and Jay were both incredibly disappointed they missed out. To think that out of all the guys even Adam got to 3rd base before either of them had ever got to see a girl naked was almost an insult to their egos.

Adam had always been a bit of an interesting character, and we weren’t the only ones who thought he didn’t even like girls. He was the kind of kid who got called a faggot in school and for pretty good reason to be honest about it, his voice even had a bit of that lispy gay upward inflection before he even hit puberty. But he wasn’t emotionally delicate, he shrugged off the bullying better than most kids and didn’t really give a fuck what anyone thought about him. It really wasn’t just his secret sexual submissiveness and eagerness to please that made him seem gay to us, it was almost everything about his personality out in public too. If any of us might eventually come out of the closet and just embrace being a faggot it would be Adam for sure, and getting a chance to fool around with Clara didn’t change that for him.

One one hand I was worried about Adam, like if he ever decided to do something as stupid as coming out of the closet how that might jeopardize our big secret in some way. But on the other hand I admired him for being a lot more comfortable in his own skin and way more honest with himself about who he was, way more than I or any of the other guys were. If it weren’t for Adam we probably would have kept lying to ourselves and pretending we were straight kids just experimenting, and around that age when we really hit puberty it was an internal struggle we were all dealing with. He was the first one of us to just start openly calling himself bisexual, at least privately among our club, and having Adam around made the rest of us feel okay with being something other than totally straight, even if it was all just a secret among some close friends. None of us were anywhere near being able to publicly come out of whatever closet we were in, but Adam definitely helped us be a lot more open and honest with ourselves and among each other in our secret little group.

But because most of us genuinely didn’t feel gay and never felt any truly romantic feelings for each other and only considered ourselves friends with benefits at the most, I was also starting to worry that Adam might develop some feelings for one or more or us which aren’t exactly mutual. If he really did have crushes on boys instead of girls he still hadn’t fully admitted that yet, and if he was attracted to any of us he was doing a pretty good job of hiding it. And after that wild night with Clara it was obvious that he liked girls to some degree, so maybe he was just bisexual and not any worse. But after that encounter with some pussy he only started coming out of his shell more and more – an unexpected boost of confidence that gave him the courage to start asking some uncomfortable questions I wasn’t really ready for.

I was hanging out with Adam a lot those days, mostly because he loved going to the new aquatic centre as much as I did, and the two of us were there together almost every other day. He was starting having as much fun as I was being a sneaky little exhibitionist with me in the change room and in the showers, and he was slowly becoming even less shy about it than I was. Apart from that he also really liked hanging out in the heat of the sauna as much as I did, especially in the cold of winter, and sometimes we’d spend so much time in there we’d end up sweating for the rest of the day.

One quiet day after school me and Adam were at the pool, sitting in that sauna all by ourselves sweating our butts off. With nobody in there with us to overhear, seemingly out of nowhere he decided to bring up a topic so dangerous we never even dared discussing it before. Even after everything we’d been through and all the secrets we were hiding, there was still one gigantic elephant in the room we never dared to even acknowledge or speak about, and it took Adam’s boldness to finally bring it out into the open.

We were talking about Clara and reminiscing about that crazy night as we sat there alone in the sauna, and Adam asked me if I thought it was weird how Clara didn’t even try kissing any of us that whole night. I’d barely even thought about it, but now that he mentioned it, sure, there was something weird about it. She apparently made out with Grant before, so why didn’t she want to try kissing anyone else when we started sharing her around? Girls are supposed to like all that touchy-feely mushy romantic shit, so it was a little strange that she’d suck all our dicks and hump us and let us eat her out, but she didn’t seem to want to make out at all, not even with Grant again. Almost like she didn’t want to do it because kissing us was the one thing would have meant she truly is a slut.

But that wasn’t even the real crux of Adams question. What he really wanted to know is why the boys in the club were all exactly the same and none of us guys had the guts to try kissing each other either, and I didn’t really have an answer for him. I saw what he was doing trying to do, trying to pique my curiosity and bait me into kissing him by using Clara to bring the topic up, but initially I was too shocked to know what to say. He sure made a good point though – if all us guys were adventurous enough to suck and fuck each other and took it as far as swallowing cum and eating ass, how and why is something as simple and innocent as kissing each other the last most biggest taboo thing we don’t even dare talk about? If we weren’t ashamed of doing all that undeniably unbelievably gay stuff, why was the thought of kissing a guy the one and only thing we were all so scared of? This was literally the first time in all our secret gay sex club anyone had the balls to even bring it up, and I was all awkward and full of excuses about it.

I told him kissing would be weird because I’m not really gay, and I don’t want to kiss anyone male or female who I don’t have those kinds of feelings for – probably the same reason Clara didn’t want to kiss any of us. I still had this silly notion that I was saving my first kiss for someone truly special like my first real girlfriend if I could ever get one, and Clara probably felt the same way, especially about actually letting anyone fuck her. Adam thought I was being a stupid hopeless romantic. He was a lot more cold and logical about it, like he’d already put some time into thinking about it and had this whole speech prepared, and he said we should try kissing each other anyway, just call it practice and not count it as a real first kiss. The way he saw it, if I were to suddenly ask some girl out and start dating her, why is saving that first kiss such a big deal when I’ve already skipped straight to 2dn and 3rd base with Clara and had all kinds of gay sex with probably a dozen guys? If I was going to keep all that a secret from any potential girlfriend and pretend to be some kind of heterosexual virgin, what’s the big deal adding one more little lie about kissing to the list? Didn’t I want to practice kissing too, just like how everything else we were doing was just “practice” for the real thing in some way?

He sure made a strong case and I had no counter argument, but I was too weirded out by the thought of kissing a guy I still didn’t know what to say. I told him I just didn’t want to and that he should drop the subject, but he kept insisting we should just quickly try kissing sometime, otherwise he was going to start asking some of the other guys to try it too. He said if I’d try kissing him he’d drop the subject and we don’t even have to tell anyone else about it if I don’t want to, but if I wasn’t going to try he’d just ask Jay or Grant or Chris instead and see what they say about it. He just wanted to know how it feels and learn to French kiss properly, he said it didn’t have to mean anything or make things weird, it could just be another experiment like everything else.

I guess I was still repressed enough that deep down I was actually worried that like so many other experiments I’d end up enjoying kissing him a bit too much. Some small part of me definitely wanted to do it, take him somewhere more private and just try a little smooch, but I was so awkward about it I couldn’t even admit that much to myself, let alone Adam. Best I could do was tell him I might change my mind later, but for now I wasn’t interested and had no desire to make out with him or kiss any guys. If I wanted him to stop bugging me about it I should have phrased it a different way, because hinting I might change my mind was as good as asking him to keep pestering me about it.

And in the days following he didn’t start incessantly bringing it back up, but over the next little while he kept mentioning it every now and then whenever we were alone and asking me to kiss him often enough to get annoying, and I kept shooting him down with all the same excuses. He never brought the topic of kissing up with any of the other guys like he said he would, only me, which should have made me a little suspicious as I kept refusing to kiss him over and over for days and weeks. I really was quite socially retarded and it took me way too long to start picking up on such obvious clues, because apart from still wanting to kiss me, Adam was also starting to get a little more clingy and kept wanting to hang out with me all the time. He’d be waiting for me in the mornings and afternoons so we could walk to and from school together, he’d follow me around outside at lunch break, and he always had his swimsuit and towel with him so he could tag along to the aquatic center whenever I went. I just thought we were becoming closer friends as we got to know each other better and I liked spending so much time with him. Friendships at that age are in a constant state of flux anyway, and while nobody in our circle had any kind of friction or fights or falling outs with each other and we all still got along great, I was definitely shifting who I spent my time with more and more those days.

Matt was always busy doing other stuff and we all started seeing a lot less of him, to the point where it felt like our original trio of me and Jay and him had kinda broken up. The 3 of us used to be inseparable, but those days me and Jay were both spending more time with Grant and Chris than we were with Matt. And off on the side I started hanging out with Adam more than I was hanging out with Jay or anyone else. Adam had been a bit of a loner when we all started hanging out – I had Jay and Matt, Grant and Chris had each other, but Adam joined in all on his own, he didn’t have any other close friends in the club at the start. Things had changed though, by then it started feeling like Adam had replaced Matt as my 2nd best friend as the two of us got to know each other really well. He followed me everywhere and you’d almost never see me and Adam apart those days.

Aside from hanging out with me and Grant and Chris in The Dungeon all the time, Adam started inviting me over to his place or inviting himself over to my place, and the two of us were spending a lot more time alone together too. He lived almost right next door in the same apartment block as I did so it was easy to hang out all the time because we were basically neighbours, and even our parents started getting to know each other because of how much time we spent together. We even started having our own little sleepovers, just the two of us staying at my place or over at his place, and I liked hanging out as his place because unlike me Adam had a tv in his bedroom and we could watch movies in peace.

One quiet Friday night I was sleeping over at his place and we were just casually watching some late night tv before bedtime, and as usual we started fooling around playing with our dicks as soon as his parents went to sleep and the apartment fell quiet. Only this time he suddenly got a lot more insistent about wanting to kiss me, telling me we should just try it to get it over with, and that we didn’t even need to tell any of the guys about it if we didn’t want to. He said it could be our little secret within a secret, and if I really don’t like it we never have to do it again.

I didn’t even have any good excuses anymore, but I still didn’t want to make out with him. It truly was the last frontier, because while kissing was the simplest 1st base thing when it came to girls, among us guys it was the last remaining biggest taboo thing that stopped our big secret sex club from feeling truly gay. It was like we could still excuse all the dirty gay sex as just taboo thrill seeking experiments – really fun experiments we repeated endlessly, sure – but as long as we didn’t kiss that was like the one last thing stopping it from actually being fully gay. If we suddenly got all touchy feely intimate and started cuddling and making out, then we wouldn’t just be adventurous perverts anymore, we’d just be full on faggots and I didn’t want to do that. The endless casual hardcore gay sex was enough for me, I definitely didn’t want it to start getting all romantic and emotional about it.

In what felt like the first time I was getting manipulated into doing something I didn’t want to do, that night Adam decided to get all pouty and bitchy about it, he’d had enough of my excuses and rejections and he said he kind of didn’t want to fool around if I wouldn’t at least try kissing him for a second or two. By that time we were both already fully nude and had gotten warmed up with some blowjobs, and as we lay in his bed together he started getting bolder, basically threatening to hold off on me unless I kissed him.

He straddled me and lined our dicks up to hump me face to face, and as he pushed his hard dick against mine he laid down on top of me with the full weight of his short little body. He started moving his hips and grinding into me, our dicks rubbing together felt amazing as usual as did the undeniably awesome sensation of pressing so much naked skin together. He even tangled his legs around mine to pin me there and get more leverage – he really loved the face to face humping and was really good at it, and I liked letting him take control.

But then he had to go and make it awkward by slowly lowering his face closer and closer to mine until our noses were almost touching. I knew what he was doing, and I just panicked and made it even more awkward by turning my head to the side, dodging him right as he started tilting his head sideways and going in for a kiss. He immediately stopped moving his hips and sighed at me, and I immediately felt like an asshole. Something in me finally snapped and I instantly regretted stopping him, so I told him I’m sorry, straightened my head back out and looked him in the eyes. I still wasn’t sure if I actually wanted to kiss him or not, but if he really meant it that he was going to hold out on me otherwise, maybe a little kiss was worth it to finally shut him up and keep him in the mood. He looked exasperated with me but still had hopeful look in his eyes, so I whispered I’m sorry again and wrapped my arms around his back and hugged him, encouraging him to go for it again without directly saying it.

We both froze in place for a second, naked bodies pressed together and not moving a muscle, maintaining intense eye contact as we both silently contemplated what was about to happen. The time for thinking about it was over though, and after a short pause Adam tilted his head sideways again, closing his eyes as he lowered his mouth towards mine. His soft little lips touched mine and we gave each other a gentle kiss on the mouth, nothing too dramatic. It was weird and exactly as awkward as I thought it would be, but it did feel kind of nice.

Adam pulled back and opened his eyes after a quick kiss and looked at me, analyzing my reaction. He didn’t say anything and neither did I, he just smiled at me and I smiled back, realizing he was right and it wasn’t that big of a deal. But then he started lowering his face towards mine again and coming back for more, and I almost wanted to dodge him again. He got his kiss, he should be happy, but of course he actually wanted to make out, and he’d made me just horny and curious enough not to try and stop him anymore.

Our lips touched again only this time we both opened our mouths and touched our tongues together and it felt so fucking weird. Neither of us had ever French kissed before so we really had no idea what we were doing, but there’s nothing really to it and it wasn’t that hard to figure out. He was still fresh out of the shower and had just brushed his teeth so he tasted all minty fresh and delicious, and we started shoving our tongues into each other’s mouths and making out pretty intensely.

A few seconds into it when Adam realized I wasn’t trying to stop him this time, he started moving his hips and humping me again and kissing me even harder. With our hard cocks sliding against each other and our naked bodies pressed together it was pretty passionate for a first kiss, and I almost hated myself for how awkward I had to make it. I felt bad because I was quickly realizing that Adam obviously had more intimate feelings for me than I had for him, and I didn’t want him to think I had any kind of gay crush on him in return. He was definitely a close friend, I loved spending time with him and he was one of my favorite guys to fool around with, but I started to worry if he was going to think this meant something or changes anything. I wanted to keep him as a secret fuck buddy, friends with benefits at the most, and I really hoped he wasn’t falling in love with me or something stupid like that.

But there was no denying that the sudden addition of some real intimacy made humping each other feel so much better. He even ran his fingers through my hair and grabbed me by the head as we kept making out, so I kept hugging him closer and caressing his back or grabbing his ass. It caused such an adrenaline dump that my heart started pounding and my body started shivering from the nerves, it felt good but kept getting more awkward and making me even more nervous as it got even more passionate.

After maybe 30 seconds of making out, Adam must have felt me tensing up and read my reaction pretty well – he stopped kissing me and pulled back, but kept slowly humping me and grinding against my dick.

“You ok?” he asked me, starting nervously into my soul and seeing I wasn’t totally comfortable with the situation, “you’re shivering…”

“Yeah, I’m fine,” I replied, not wanting to disappoint him but still feeling awkward about it, “I’m just nervous I guess, this is kinda weird…”

“What if I do this instead?” he asked as he moved his head over and softly kissed me on the side of the neck.

“Umm, ok,” I said, kind of glad I didn’t have to kiss him back anymore, still feeling awkward about it. But the little neck kiss felt nice so I didn’t stop him, and he kept softly kissing up and down from my shoulder right up to under my ear. I wrapped my hands around him and held him tight as he kept thrusting and grinding me harder and faster, and he even started kissing and sucking on my ear lobe a little bit. There was no denying it felt good, but it still felt wrong somehow and I’d never been so torn in half about anything before.

If it were up to me we would have skipped all this weird intimacy stuff and stuck to the usual raw animalistic fucking, but I really didn’t want to say no to Adam and let him down. I think this was the first time I had been convinced to try something I really didn’t want to do, and it was a bit of a heavy realization. Was this how all those younger more awkward and reluctant boys in the club felt when we tried convincing them to suck dick for the first time? Was I having the same internal dilemma as all the shy guys who were too hesitant to try anal or whatever? Was I finally getting a taste of my own medicine now that someone else was pushing me to my limits? Because now all of a sudden I was the hesitant closed minded one, and while I was okay with Adam kissing me and sucking my earlobe or whatever, I was still too scared to kiss him back and properly return the favor.

That didn’t slow Adam down one bit though, and he decided to start kissing me lower and lower on my neck until he stopped humping me and kept sliding further down. He started kissing my chest, then my nipples one after another, and it felt so strange but good at the same time. It was still massively awkward to me, but I’d never had anyone worship my body like that before and I did enjoy it. He was already acting way more gay than ever before, and as I lay there and let him do it, he just kept getting more confident and open about it.

“I love how muscular you’re getting,” Adam whispered to me as he grabbed one of my biceps and squeezed, then started kissing my abs down my belly. Holy shit! He really was obsessing about my body, and I was so shocked by the compliment I didn’t even know what to say and didn’t reply. I just looked down at him dumbfounded by such a blatantly gay statement, kind of proud of myself for being decently ripped for my age, but kind of disturbed by how much it seemed to turn him on. We weren’t ever shy about commenting about each other’s bodies, but it was always pretty neutral and strictly observational statements, we never ever blatantly complimented each other in such a thirsty homosexual way before. So for such a simple remark it sure carried a lot of meaning because it was basically as good as coming out of the closet and admitting he has a crush on me. It wasn’t just about the raw sensations and degenerate thrills of the secret gay sex life for him, Adam was clearly getting something more out of this and enjoying it on a different level I wasn’t sure I was comfortable with.

I didn’t know what to say as he kept kissing my abs lower and lower on my belly, working his way down to my cock. I might have been hitting puberty pretty hard but I still didn’t even have a trace of pubic hair on me yet, and he kissed the bare skin all around my shaft as he grabbed my dick with one hand. He even licked my balls a bit and sucked my sack into his mouth, using his tongue to play with my testicles, a pretty rare move when it came to our usual blowjobs. After a bit more teasing he finally started sucking my cock like normal, but even that felt a bit more intimate and passionate than usual as he looked up at me, and we locked eye contact as he slid my dick in and out of his mouth. It quickly turned into a full on cock worshipping blowjob and he just kept going and going, no interruption for several long minutes as he slowly took his time working me up to the edge of orgasm. He knew exactly what pace to keep to make it feel amazing but not make me cum too fast, and he gave me one of the longest and best blowjobs I’d ever had, not even worried about me returning the favor.

He didn’t make me cum though, he still had other ideas and didn’t want to finish me off that quickly. After sucking my cock for a good long while he finally stopped and looked up at me again.

“I want your big dick inside me,” he said, again surprising me with his choice of words as he started crawling off me, begging me to fuck him. Being such a giver and a willing bottom was totally in character for him, but it was the vocabulary he used and the blatant sexy dirty talk way he said it that threw me off. From the moment I let him kiss me he’d been ramping up how outwardly gay he was willing to be, and he was right on the edge of making me feel uncomfortable about it. He knew he was pushing my buttons and he was having fun doing it, and even though he knew I might not feel the same way as him emotionally, he knew I still found him irresistible at least physically and would never turn down a chance to fuck that sweet little ass of his.

“Okay, but let me lick your hole first,” I replied, trying to talk a little dirty too, wanting to keep the mood going.

“Yeah, do it,” Adam said as he turned around onto all fours, arching his back to stick his ass up into the air.

I got myself into a nice comfortable position behind him, put one hand on each of his perfect plump little butt cheeks, and dove right in and started licking his tight smooth little hole. I was way more into this kind of disgusting degeneracy than I was any kind of silly intimacy, so I really liked giving nice long and deep rimjobs. And if Adam was going to get his kicks that night then so was I, so I started making out with his ass more passionately than I had kissed him on the mouth. Eating ass was the single most perverted and taboo thing we ever did and I loved the thrill of doing something so degenerate, especially with someone who loved it as much as Adam did. I stuck my tongue up inside his hole as far as I possibly could and slid it in and out, sealing my lips deep in his crack and literally pumping his rectum full of spit, pushing it deep into him to lube him up. He relaxed and gaped his hole open for me, almost sucking my extended tongue up even deeper inside him, and his hole was still somehow small and tight even when he fully relaxed.

I took one hand off his ass and reached around under him to stroke his dick, and I settled in and kept eating his ass hard and deep. Adam was definitely enjoying the sensation so I was going to keep it up for a good long time, nothing too crazy like the marathon blowjob he’d just given me, but long enough to tease him and make him start begging me to shove my cock into him. And it didn’t even take that long, maybe two or three minutes of tongue fucking him until he did exactly that and begged me to fuck him already.

I pulled my face out of his ass and started getting into doggystyle position behind him, but Adam told me to wait because he wanted to change positions and lay on his back so we could face each other. He turned his body around and sprawled out on his bed looking up at me with his legs spread wide open, so I crawled up between his legs to mount him in a mating press or missionary position. I squatted down on my knees and lifted his legs up over mine, shuffling forward until the tip of my hard dick was just barely touching his taint, and I grabbed my shaft with one hand and started teasing his hole with the head of my cock. He was so wet and slippery from me eating his ass I could have easily slid right in, but I liked a bit of foreplay and kept taunting him by barely starting to stick my tip in and gently poking at him.

Adam quickly got impatient, and as I held my dick lined up with his hole, he started sliding his body downward, kind of wiggling his spine and walking his shoulder blades down his bed to inch his way down onto my cock. I held my dick straight and lined it up to penetrate him, and rather than push myself straight in, I stayed still and lifted Adam by his waist and pulled him in towards me, sliding him down onto my cock until I was deep inside him. He was well lubed up and felt nice and tight as usual, and he had that look of concentration on his face halfway to wincing, which was pretty normal for the first penetration of the night.

But as soon as I sunk my entire dick into him balls deep he started smiling, and we locked eye contact again as I slowly started pumping in and out. Adam really did love getting fucked probably even more than I did, and that’s saying a lot. He started twisting his hips to help make my thrusts longer and deeper, quietly squirming on his bed and loving every moment of it. This was easily my favorite position to fuck in so I was loving it too, his ass was so tight and slippery and I could really pound him deep this way. It was so cool to look down and see my shaft disappearing into his hole, watching his little adolescent dick keep getting harder and swing up and down to the rhythm.

Once we got into a groove of pumping and thrusting I let go of his waist and put my hands down on either side of him to brace myself, leaning forward over him and hovering above his naked body as I started fucking him harder and harder. In response to that Adam reached up and put his arms around my back, hugging and caressing me and slowly trying to pull me down further onto him. He stared up into my eyes and slowly tilted his head a bit sideways, trying to pull me down, obviously trying to kiss me again.

But I was still too weirded out to go for it, and with my elbows locked straight I resisted and wouldn’t let him pull me down. He might have said that he loved how muscular I was getting, but he sure didn’t appreciate me using that strength to fight off his efforts to kiss me again, and he started almost clawing at me trying to get me to collapse down onto him and make out. And when he realized I didn’t want to go for it he let out and exasperated sigh again and stopped moving, letting go of my back and going limp, being nothing but motionless dead weight for me to fuck.

“What wrong?” I asked him quietly as I slowed right down but kept my dick throbbing deep inside him.

“I don’t understand,” he said, “why don’t you want to kiss?”

“I dunno, it just makes things weird, don’t you think?” I replied, being fully honest how I felt about it.

“Why is that weird?” Adam asked.

“Well, because I’m not really gay I guess,” I said with my cock balls deep inside his ass, then asked him, “but, like, are you gay? Cause it’s okay if you are or whatever…”

“No,” he replied, “but I guess I’m bisexual because I just think you’re really hot, like, your body is amazing,” he said as he reached up to grab one of my biceps again, “sorry if that makes it weird or whatever.”

“That’s not weird,” I said, trying to be as honest as possible without hurting his feelings, “I mean I guess I’m bisexual too then, and I think you’re hot too, but I think I just like the sex,” I went on as I slowly started moving my hips again and thrusting in and out of him, and we proceeded to have a surprisingly frank and open discussion about our feelings and the state of things as I continued slowly fucking him.

“So? Why don’t you wanna kiss? Is that really so much worse?” he asked.

“It’s not that, it’s just, umm, I really like you, but I only like you as a friend, you know what I mean?”

“Yeah me too, I know you don’t want a boyfriend or whatever, I told you it doesn’t have to mean anything.”

“So, you don’t like, have a crush on me or something?”

“Yeah, maybe I do, but who cares? We can still just be friends with benefits, right?”

“I dunno it still feels weird to me.” I said, having a pretty heavy realization that what I suspected about him was true.

“I promise I won’t make it weird or anything, we already kissed a bit, please can we just try it again?” he begged me with an adorable pouty expression on his face. He looked like he was trying to act as cute and sexy as possible trying to make me get attracted to him, and honestly it was kind of starting to work. I was actually beginning to feel bad for denying him, and getting curious what would happen if I really went for it.

“Okay maybe,” I said hesitantly, “but only if you promise not to be awkward about it.”

“I promise I won’t,” Adam replied, “but come on, be honest with me – don’t you ever get tempted to hug, or cuddle up in front of the tv, or snuggle together in bed and stuff like that too? Why is it always only about the sex?”

“I never thought about it that way I guess,” I answered him, still nervous about how intimate he suddenly wanted to be. I knew it was a big lie that kissing him didn’t have to mean anything and wouldn’t make things weird, it was already getting weird and it was too late to go back on it now. There was damn good reason we’d completely avoided this topic for so long, but now it was too late and the only way to go was forward, further into this awkward mess. I still didn’t want to hurt his feelings because I clearly didn’t feel exactly the same way about him, but he knew that and it sure didn’t seem to bother him.

“Come on, please?” Adam begged again as he wrapped his arms around my back again and tried to pull me down onto him, “just let me kiss you while you fuck me!”

“Okay fine,” I relented, “just don’t make it weird, and let’s not tell Grant and Chris or the other guys, okay?”

“I won’t,” he said as he put his arms around my shoulders and pulled himself up toward me.

This time I didn’t stop him and let myself collapse on top of him, putting him back down on his bed and lowering my face toward his. We held our position so I could keep on fucking him, we both closed our eyes, tilted our heads and locked our lips together. We started making out and pushing our tongues together, and I started pounding his ass harder and faster. I still felt this deep down awkwardness about kissing a guy, but now that it was our second try and I was on top and in control, it wasn’t so weird this time.

At least he was somehow a good kisser despite having zero experience, but I didn’t know what I was doing either and thankfully making out wasn’t all that difficult, and it honestly did feel kind of nice. It definitely added to the workload and made the sex that much more intense, this was way beyond some easy casual fucking and made it into a full body workout. We kept sucking each other faces for a good long while and started alternating between deep hard kissing, shoving our tongues down each other’s throats, and then gently kissing and just sucking each other’s lips and rubbing our noses together, breathing the same air as I kept thrusting my dick deep inside his guts.

He rubbed his hands up and down my back and neck, and gently ran his fingers up through my hair again and grabbed onto my head. I let my chest press against his as I held myself up on my elbows for some leverage, sliding my forearms under his shoulders to cradle him as I kept fucking and kissing him more and more passionately. It was pretty easy to start losing myself in the moment, I started feeling the awkwardness fade and just let myself enjoy dominating his cute little boyish body, and the way he reacted to the intimacy just kept turning me on more and more and made me feel kind of special. If he really was turning out gay at least it was me he had a crush on! And if he just needed an outlet for his more intimate temptations, it felt good to be the one he trusted to share it all with. Even though I still didn’t think I felt the same way about him as he did about me, we were right on the borderline of finding out the difference between having sex and making love, that’s how passionate it was getting.

I kept fucking him harder and faster and having to readjust, and the increasing intensity of our rhythmic pumping kept sliding him further and further up his bed until his head bumping his headboard with every thrust. We stopped kissing so he could grab a pillow to put under his neck and readjust position one more time, and I was getting so out of breath I decided to pay him back for earlier and kiss him a few other places. I started kissing his neck and shoulders as we got back into rhythm, and I had to start pacing myself and not fucking him too hard so I didn’t cum too fast.

I cradled the back of his neck in one hand and started kissing up the side of his shoulder, and just like he did to me I started kissing right behind his ear and playing with his little ear lobe, flicking it with my tongue and sucking on it gently. I felt almost dirty doing it, like it was worse than eating his ass because now I was acting like a total boy loving faggot too. But his skin was so soft and smooth and his little body was so young and perfect that some deep down repressed part of me definitely enjoyed worshipping his body a bit. At first I felt like it was maybe a bit too far, but it just sent him over the edge and he started gasping and moaning with pleasure.

He let out a little “Mm,” or “ah!” with every thrust of my cock, quietly at first, but then suddenly loud enough to make me worried, moaning “ah – ah – ah!” louder with every pump.

“Holy shit, shut up, someone’s going to hear you!” I said to him as I slowed right down and lifted my head up to look at him.

“Sorry,” he said quietly, face blushing red, sweating and smiling at me as he caught his breath. “Keep going though, it feels so good,” he went on, begging me not to stop.

“I don’t know if I can, you’re going to make me cum”

“That’s okay, cum inside me,” he begged, twisting his hips to try and keep riding my dick.

“Hold on, I need a break,” I said as I had to catch my breath too. I wasn’t actually right on the edge and about to blow my load, but I was close enough I wanted to switch things up for a bit. I didn’t just want to be the top all night either, so I decided to keep talking dirty him and whispered right in his ear, “come on, I want you inside me too, let’s trade spots.”

“Sure, if you want,” he replied, “but why bother? Don’t you wish my dick was bigger like Grant’s or like yours?” he asked, suddenly self conscious about his size. He might have tended a bit more towards being a bottom boy, but he was as versatile as the rest of us and never ever hesitated to be the top before. His dick wasn’t even that small, sure it was way smaller than Grant’s and a lot smaller than mine, but he was both shorter in height and younger than us so we never thought much of it. He was about smack dab in the middle of average sized, his cock was easily somewhere between 4 and 5 inches hard, not bad for a short little 11 year old kid who hadn’t even hit puberty yet. And it was perfect in every other way, all the proportions were right and it had a nice gentle bit of upward curve to it and a normal amount of foreskin to play with. He had absolutely nothing to be shy or self conscious about, so I was a little shocked by what he said – was he fishing for compliments or something? Because it made no sense how he’d suddenly been so confident acting all gay and getting what he wants from me, only to get all self conscious about his dick size.

“I don’t care, I want it inside me,” I reassured him.

“But my dick is so small, I wish it was huge like yours,” he said as he laid there playing with his cock underneath me.

“It’s not small, it’s like, perfect basically,” I said, trying to pay him a compliment as I reached down to touch it and stroke it too. I slowly pulled my cock out of his ass and held it up next to his to compare, and I told him, “look, it’s not that much smaller, and you’re still growing.”

“I guess so, is yours still growing too?” he asked as he lined our dicks up parallel and started stroking both our shafts at the same time, one in each hand.

“I dunno,” I replied, “but stop that before you make me cum, let’s switch spots, please? Come on, I want you inside me, we can keep making out if you want,” I begged him.

“Okay, here, trade places,” he said eagerly as he crawled out from under me.

I turned myself over and lay down on my back, propping my head up on his pillow and spreading my legs apart as Adam shuffled into position. He scooted down until his face was hovering over my hard dick, and he grabbed my shaft with one hand and gave me a quick blowjob first, just enough to keep me close to the edge. He licked the underside of my shaft all the way to my balls, then kept going lower as I curled my back to lift my ass up for him. He kissed my taint under my balls and then started licking my hole, still holding my dick in one hand as he started eating my ass.

He started giving me a handjob and rimjob at the same time, and not only did it feel amazing, looking down and watching him do it was incredibly hot. His little tongue swirling around and in and out of my ass felt incredibly good, and it was exciting watching and feeling his little face push into my crack, and feeling him pump me full of spit while slowly playing with my dick all at the same time. I wasn’t into moaning or making noise like Adam was, but I told him it felt good and he kept it going for a good little while. I loved how he was such a pervert when it came to the dirtier stuff like this or swallowing cum, I probably wouldn’t have put up with his constant begging for some intimacy and kissing otherwise, but this kind of stuff made it worth it.

After tongue fucking and slobbering all over my hole for a good long time, Adam finally came up for air and started shuffling up into position to fuck me. He lined his hard dick up perfectly and started pushing into me, and he left my ass so sloppy wet that his whole cock slid in effortlessly, pushing in balls deep on the first thrust. Sure his dick wasn’t as massive as Grant’s or Chris’s, but it still filled me up nicely and felt so good. And maybe because of the way his shaft curved upward a bit, but in that position the head of his cock poked and bumped just the right spot up inside me as he started gently pumping in and out.

“Mmm that feels good,” I whispered to him as he started fucking me and nudging my prostate just right. As soon as he settled into a comfortable position and got a bit of a rhythm going, he leaned forward over me and started lowering himself onto me. I curled my back a bit to lift my ass and give him a good angle to keep fucking me as he slowly leaned over me, and as he looked me in the eyes I tilted my head slightly and craned my neck up to kiss him. Our lips touched again and we only kissed lightly this time, just barely pecking each other on the mouth as Adam started thrusting a little harder. We sucked each other’s lips and kept kissing but didn’t touch tongues or make out too hard, we were both breathing a little too heavy for that.

Adam started kissing my chin and cheek and down the side of my neck again, and I wrapped my arms around his back and let him have his fun worshipping my body. I kissed his shoulder and wherever else I could as he squirmed on top of me and started quickening the pace, and as he kept fucking me we ended up doing more necking than making out. By that point I was over the awkwardness of it and really started to enjoy it, so I gave him the same kind of body worshipping kissing and caressing as I held onto him, pulling him into me and clamping down on his dick with my ass muscles.

It didn’t take long until Adam was slowing down and speeding back up as he started creeping up on the edge of orgasm. But he knew exactly how to ride that wave without going over, and he just kept on going at it and slowly building the intensity. After a good while kissing every bit of my body his mouth could reach in that position, he finally kissed me on the mouth again and we started making out properly, tongues and everything. It quickly got even more intense and passionate than before now that I was actually getting really into it, and with Adam back on top he was in control and all over me. He ran his fingers through my hair again and held the side of my head, so I did the same to him. I cupped his neck in one hand and massaged him lightly as he kept fucking me hard and kissing me deep.

I don’t know if time just slowed down or if his stamina was amazing that night, it just went on and on for what felt like forever, and not in a bad way at all. But eventually Adam did start edging himself and really had to slow down, and after quite a long fuck he finally stopped and slowly pulled out. He said he didn’t want to cum yet and that we should trade spots again, and I was more than happy to have another turn the other way. So as he climbed off me I asked him what position he wanted, and he said he didn’t care, he just wanted my big dick inside him again.

I told him to get on all fours doggystyle, not because I was tired of kissing him but just to mix things up a bit. I also wanted to eat his ass some more so he eagerly turned himself around into position, and I stuck my face down between his cute little butt cheeks and started tongue fucking him again. I just wanted to keep fucking him so I didn’t make a big thing out of it, I just got his delicious little hole all lubed up and got up into a kneeling position behind him. I slid the head of my cock up and down his ass crack a little bit to tease him and warn him I’m about to penetrate, then I lined it up and started pushing in.

It felt so good as that warm wet ring of tight muscle slid down my shaft, enveloping my dick in his soft squishy guts. He was still nice and warmed up so I sunk the whole length of my cock in easily, and immediately started slowly sliding in and out. I took it easy at first, grabbed him by the hips for control, and started pushing long strokes in and out, pulling almost all the way out until my head was about to squeeze out but then pushing all the way back in. Having such fine control was what I liked about good old fashioned doggystyle, and I was back in my comfort zone getting back to nothing but pure raw animalistic fucking.

Adam started softly moaning with pleasure again, trying to keep himself quiet this time. It sounded almost weird and fake to me like he was just trying to imitate some of the porn videos we’d watched, but he really couldn’t help himself and it was totally genuine. It was still weird though because none of the other guys in our club ever made those kinds of cheesy sex noises. We’d tell each other what felt good and warn each other when we’re about to cum but it was very matter of fact and that was about it – Adam was the only one who vocalized his pleasure by straight up moaning like a bitch.

I didn’t mind one bit though, I thought it was sexy and the way he was so comfortable just being himself and letting it out really turned me on. He got so into it as I started fucking him harder and faster that he half collapsed forward on his bed, his arms gave out from under him and he let his head and chest fall down on his pillow, keeping his ass up in the air nice and high as I kept pumping in and out. It didn’t take much build up until I was fucking him deep and hard and fast, and it got so intense that it was hard to hold that position. He kept slipping away from me and I kept having to hold him up by the hips and readjust, fucking him harder and harder until my hips were smacking his ass fast enough to make a little clapping sound.

On top of that his little moans and gasps were getting louder, and we were making almost too much noise. Lucky for us it was late enough his family was deep asleep by then, otherwise someone would have definitely heard us. And if anyone did hear us we’d be so busted, there’s no possible innocent excuses for those kinds of noises emanating from Adam’s bedroom that late at night. I was pounding his ass so hard we both kind of lost our grip and slipped forward together, his legs gave out from under him too and he collapsed the rest of the way down onto his stomach, and somehow my dick stayed firmly inside him as I followed him down, and I just kept fucking. With him pinned under me on his stomach I pressed my chest down into his back and kept fucking him even harder.

I kept fucking Adam as he lay flat on his stomach, and in such a nice easy comfortable position I could keep going for a good long time. He was nice and comfortable too, but after a little while he wanted to adjust and change position. He wanted to stoke his dick while I fucked him and that was impossible to do having him pinned face down on his bed like that, so without even pulling my dick out of him, the two of us rolled over onto our sides into a spooning position, not even missing a beat and continuing to fuck as we lay on our sides.

I stuck my lower arm under his neck and around him to hug him from behind and hold him in place, putting my other hand on his hip for some leverage. His little body squirmed in my grip as he reached down to stroke his cock, and he slowly started jerking off to the gentle rhythm I was fucking him with. I could have grabbed his dick and gave him the reacharound, but I decided to use both hands to hold and caress his smooth little boyish body as I spooned him and fucked him, and he seemed to like that even better. I put one hand on his belly with the arm I had wrapped around under him, and ran my other hand up and down the side of his torso and thigh, grabbing some ass along the way. I pulled him tight into me tight, squeezing the front of my naked body against the back of his.

I knew he probably wanted to keep kissing, but we couldn’t at that angle, so I decided to do the next best thing and kiss the side of his neck again. And when I started playing with his soft little earlobe again that really got him going, and he started softly moaning. As the intensity slowly built up again he started stroking his cock faster and faster and gasping and moaning louder again, so I whispered at him to shut up again. Not because I didn’t like the noises he was making, but because he was getting so loud I genuinely thought he was going to wake someone up and get us caught by his parents.

He did his best to quiet down, but since he’d never made such noise before I thought he was doing it mostly to fuck with my head and tease me. I warned him again to shut up, but he just wouldn’t be quiet. So I decided to tease him back and reached up to cover his mouth with my hand, not too forcefully like I was choking him, just enough to shut him up and muffle his continuous gasping and moaning. That finally made him shut up for a few seconds, but the instant I removed my hand from his mouth he started back up again even louder. So I put my hand back over his mouth again and told him to seriously shut the fuck up before his parents hear us, and this time I felt him smiling mischievously under my hand as I covered his mouth – he was getting off on it and actually wanted me to muffle and choke and dominate him.

So I played along and held his mouth tight, pulling his head back into my shoulder and sealing my hand on his face, only letting him breathe through his nose. He resisted and squirmed a little bit, but he didn’t tap out or tell me to stop, he just let out a soft little hum and kept playing with his dick even more. It felt almost wrong and borderline violent, but as soon as I realized he was into it and wanted me to be a little rough with him I decided to play along. I wrapped my free arm around his belly and pulled him into me even tighter, kept my hand over his mouth and bent his body backwards to fit mine as I fucked him harder and harder. In that spooning position I couldn’t really shove my dick super deep into his guts, so I made up for the short shallow thrusts with extra speed, twitching my hips as fast as I could, holding him much tighter than I needed to. Since he seemed to enjoy getting physically dominated like that, I took a page from Grant’s playbook and got a little rough with him.

Adam didn’t quite go completely limp, but he relaxed and let me totally overpower him while I kept covering his mouth and halfway choking him. He just kept playing with his dick as I kept fucking him, and I didn’t take much longer until he started humming and making some noise again, warning me he was about to cum with a mumble muffled by my hand still over his mouth. I was getting pretty close to the edge myself so I kept the rapid pace going, sealing my hand firmly over his mouth again as Adam started gasping and moaning again, holding him tight against me and pounding that sweet tight ass as hard as I dare. I didn’t hold back hoping I could make us both cum at the same time, but Adam had already passed the point of no return and I tried to catch up as I felt him start squirming even harder. He kept stroking his dick faster and faster as I quickly felt an epic orgasm starting to bubble up from within me.

Adam came first and started letting out long soft moans through his nose as I kept my hand over his mouth, slowing down and just holding his throbbing cock in his hand as the sensation washed over him. I felt his entire body tense up as he went over the edge, and I kept thrusting and pounding his ass because I was only a few seconds behind him and about to cum myself. It was such an intense and amazing orgasm that I blacked out for a few seconds, my mind went completely blank as I lost control of myself and let it happen. My toes curled and my eyes rolled back in my head and I didn’t regain conscious control of my body until my dick was twitching and pumping him full of cum. I started blowing my load deep inside him, feeling that warm slimy goo spread around and coat his insides and leak back down the length of my cock.

“Mmm don’t pull it out yet,” Adam said to me as I slowed to a stop and finally took my hand off of his mouth.

“I just came though,” I told him as I caught my breath.

“I know, me too,” he replied, “let’s just stay like this for a bit though, it feels so good.”

“Okay…” I said as he squirmed and pushed his ass into me and held onto my cock with it. It felt nice staying pressed up against his naked body and spooning him, so I just kept holding him as my dick stayed hard inside him.

“That felt sooo good,” Adam whispered to me as he relaxed and wiggled into an even more comfortable position, “I wish we could fall asleep like this.”

“Yeah, that felt awesome,” I told him as I hugged him from behind, “I wish we could sleep like this too, but what if we get caught like this in the morning?”

“I could set my alarm to wake us up, if you want to,” he suggested.

“Sure, if you want,” I replied, thinking it would be kinda nice to snuggle up to him all night even if it meant we couldn’t really sleep in.

“Really? You’ll sleep in my bed with me?” he asked all eagerly.

“Yeah, this is way more comfortable than my sleeping bag on the floor,” I said as I kept hugging him, squirming into a comfortable position myself and slowly sliding my hypersensitive rock hard cum coated dick back and forth inside him a bit.

“Okay just stop for a second then,” Adam told me, obviously getting a bit oversensitive and touchy too in that post orgasm haze. He started worming his way forward so I let go of him as I slowly pulled my dick out of his ass, and he crawled over to the edge of his bed to set his alarm on his nightstand. He set it early enough so we’d be awake before his parents came to check on us, and he grabbed his blanket to cover us both up as he rolled back my way.

Adam rolled onto his other side as he pulled his blanket up over both of us so we ended up laying there face to face with our heads on his pillows. His bed was pretty small so we were already just inches apart, and he reached his arms around me to hug me. I wrapped my arms around him too, and as we pressed our naked bodies together he came in for another kiss. We started making out again which almost felt weird in that post nut clarity, but I just went with it and started caressing his body and tangling our legs together. Our hard dicks bumped and touched together a bit but we didn’t get close to humping each other because of how drained and sensitive our cocks were.

We kissed and ran our hands up and down each other’s bodies for a good little while, but eventually we got tired and Adam rolled back over to face away from me and we shuffled into a nice tight spooning position again. My dick was still hard and probably wasn’t going to go soft until I fell asleep, but I didn’t stick it back inside him, I just lined my shaft up with his butt crack and rested it between his cheeks as I pressed against his naked body. I wrapped my arms around him tight and enjoyed all the bare skin on skin contact as we slowly drifted off to sleep. Some little part of me still felt a little weird for being so intimate with a guy, but by then the fun and good feelings definitely outweighed any remaining awkwardness.

It took a while to calm down and unwind enough for either of us to actually fall asleep, but we did eventually drift off in that close embrace and slept together. I ended up having an amazingly good sleep even though we did kind of toss and turn and readjust into a more comfortable position a few times throughout the night.

In fact I kept having these wicked awesome sexy dreams all night, something about falling asleep with someone in my arms and so much naked flesh pressed together kept my subconscious brain on the topic all night. The last dream of the night started feeling super ultra realistic, it was one of those semi-lucid dreams and I was kind of drifting in and out of consciousness, dreaming about getting an amazing blowjob.

Only it wasn’t a dream and before the alarm went off in the morning Adam literally woke me up by sucking my dick. It was such a weird way to wake up but it wasn’t the first time we’d done stuff like that to each other at our sleepovers, so it wasn’t a huge surprise but it was a nice one for sure. So I said good morning and let him keep going for a bit, but waking up to a blowjob first thing in the morning made me so horny I wanted to suck his dick too. We ended up switching to 69 and took our time sucking each other off until we made each other cum.

Adam came first and I felt and tasted a bit of precum starting to leak out of him. His orgasms were still dry but probably wouldn’t be for much longer if the precum was any indication. He was going to be 12 years old in a few months so it could happen anytime for him, and I think I was looking forward to his first ejaculation even more than he was.

I blew a substantial load into Adam’s mouth when I came, and as always he sealed his lips around my shaft and sucked up and swallowed every last drop like he was hungry for it. After that we just kinda hung out for a bit, put some cartoons on the tv and relaxed until breakfast time. Adam didn’t try cuddling up to or kissing me anymore that morning, and I didn’t know whether to be happy or disappointed about it. I’d thought we’d gotten over the awkwardness of those first kisses but I didn’t know how he felt, I guess he was just in a different mood or something. Either way we didn’t even talk about it and went about our day pretending to be normal kids again.

As much as we promised ourselves the kissing and snuggling wasn’t going to change anything or make things weird, of course that couldn’t be the way it went after that night. Instead of dropping the subject after having his curiosity satiated, Adam just kept wanting to kiss me again whenever the two of us were alone in the days and weeks following. He kept getting even more clingy and insisting on spending all his free time with me, he wanted to go to movies together almost like going on dates, and he’d always come with me whenever I went to the pool. I didn’t mind one bit and still loved spending time with him, but he did occasionally make things awkward again whenever he wanted to sneak a little intimacy.

He’d try holding my hand or sneaking a quick kiss if we went to see a movie and nobody was around, or he’d try snuggling up to me and kissing if we were just watching tv in his room. But I’d always shoot him down and reject all his advances until we had another sleepover and made it a part of fooling around. He spent a night over at my place not long after, and we did as much kissing and necking and making out as the first time, but we still kept it to ourselves and never told any of the other guys about it. By the second time I was really starting to enjoy getting all intimate with Adam off on our own, but now we had yet another secret within a secret that only divided the club up even more. Grant and Chris may have had The Dungeon and become kind of the leaders of the club, but me and Adam had our own thing developing and were clearly a bit more adventurous than everyone else in some weird way. I still didn’t think it would lead to having serious feelings for each other, but in private we sure acted like we already did.

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