My mom and I have started making out

My mom is only 15 years older than me, she got pregnant in her 1st year of high school. For the first 5 or 6 years of my life I lived at my grandparents’ house, but i barely remember any of that. My mom finished high school and then started nursing school, and after she finished that the two of us moved into an apartment. Now i’m 14, almost the same age my mom was when i was born, and my mom is 29. The thing is that because of how close we are in age she is basically my best friend too, we get along so well. I know it sounds pathetic that my mom is my best friend and i do have plenty of regular friends at school, but i hang out with my mom a lot and we have so much in common, and it really is like hanging out with a friend. I’m mature for my age too, everyone always told me that, i do really well in school (actually skipped a year) and i know this will sound pretentious but i think i have mature taste in movies and music and stuff. Well i play a lot of video games and i guess you could think that’s kind of childish, but lots of adults do that too. I also hit puberty pretty young and now i look older than i am, i look more like i’m in my late teens than my early teens and i behave like a guy in his late teens too i think. I’m a year younger tan everyone else in m grade but i look older than any of them. My mom is kind of the opposite, she looks and acts like she is younger than she is, so we kind of meet in the middle if you know what i mean. If you saw her you would probably think she was a college student and she has this really fun and cheerful and playful personality that makes her really cool to hang out with. I watch movies with my mom most nights, we listen to the same music, she is really into gaming since she was a kid and we have a PS5 and play the same games. She was playing Minecraft since almost before i was born and we have a shared server that we play on together all the time. She is much better than me at CoD too. Other guys i know have moms who are like old ladies who yell at them and nag them all the time and i always knew i was really lucky to have a mom like mine.

So to get to the point, something happened this weekend that changed things. We were watching a movie and the heating wasn’t working so we put a blanket over both of us and cuddled on the couch. We are really close and we cuddle a lot so that’s normal, but this time it was different. I don’t really know how it happened but she had her arms around me and was kind of half sitting on my lap and i had my hand on her neck then she looked up at me and our eyes met and it just sort of happened. We started making out, really passionate. It wasn’t my first kiss or anything, i’ve kissed girls at my school and done other stuff with a couple of them, but i never had a steady girlfriend since i never really liked any of those girls that much. This kiss was different though, we had our tongues in each others mouths and it was so intense, i lost track of time and don’t know how long it went on for but it must have been at least 10 minutes of just making out.

When it stopped i came back to my senses and i was kind of embarrassed, i went to bed and couldn’t sleep at all because i was so confused about what i was feeling. The next morning my mom was her normal cheerful self and i thought maybe it was a one time thing and it would go back to normal now, but later that day it happened again. We were just sitting next to each other and it was like there was this electric charge, she felt it too because she turned to kiss me at the exact same time. Since then it has been happening every day, we just can’t stop it. I came home from school and she gives me a hug like she always does when i come through the door, but that turns into another makeout session. Every time our faces are near each other it just happens. It’s changed the way i think of her too, like i said before i thought of her like my best friend but now i see her differently. I think i’m kind of in love with her and i’m pretty sure she feels the same about me. The kissing has just become a normal part of daily life for us now and we spend hours lying on the sofa with our mouths together and it feels so amazing, but also confusing. Last couple days we’ve even been getting pretty touchy with each other while we do it, last time we were on the couch i had my hand up her shirt even though i didn’t really mean to put it there, but she was fine with it. I don’t know where this is going or if this is ok, maybe i should tell her we have to stop. I think about her 24/7 while i’m at school and i feel like that really isn’t healthy, it’s like our relationship is turning from best friends into more of a boyfriend/girlfriend kind of thing but she’s still my mom. This is just really confusing.