An Embarrassing moment in my life

I was getting caught using a vibrator in my car.

I am a 19 year old student attending university and live in the dormitory rooms on campus. You know, not much privacy there because I have roommates which schedules change all the time. So when I have strong urges, mostly just during my ovulation time, I go to my car and drive some place because it’s much safer as in private.

Last night, my urges became so very strong again. I could not sleep, I was tossing and turining, my skin too hot, my mind focused on one thing. So I drove out to a deserty area where my city is building new homes. It was dark, only sand, unfinished buildings and no people to interrupt me, in my head this was a perfect hiding spot. So I parked and begun my task. I was getting very into it you know, so I close my eyes, turn up the volume on my vibrator and became fully immersed in my own world. It was so shameful, the wettness was dripping down my inner thighs warmly and slowly, and the sounds of this act....so filthy I cannot even describe to you habibi ههههه.

Then, suddenly, a strong white light came, like a spotlight into my back window and side windows. It stayed for a few long dreadful seconds, then it turned off. My heart stopped. I was stunned. Then I hurried, pulled my clothes on, climbed to the front seat, and drove away. Now I am feeling somewhat anxious and my stomach has knots. I dont know where this light came from but I am assuming it was from someone with a flashlight. It could have came from a policeman or just a random worker from the construction sites coming to check on me. I am nervous if they got my license plate or God forbid they filmed me! Or maybe they thought I am a crazy person. For sure I will never go to this area again.

However I am mostly feeling worried because if it was from a policeman, I could get in trouble due to sharia as these completely natural things are not understood nor forgiven. I was just needing privacy and I thought my car was safe. But now I feel so stupid and humiliated. I hope this doesnt happen again, so I must be more aware next time.