Virgin 1st gynecologist exam

I think a Doctor took advantage of me. Please let me know what you think.

I was 14 and was having trouble with my periods and my Mother made a Doctor appointment for me. I'll try to keep this short because I am not very good at writing but need information on what happened to me, and if it was normal or not. This very old Doctor had me get completely naked and streched out on a examination table. He placed my feet in those stirrup things so my legs were streched wide open and my feet up in the air. First he keep feeling my breasts for what seemed forever. While he was doing this I could not help but notice a huge bulge in his pants. When he got done doing that he sat on a stool and positioned it so his face was right between my legs. He used two fingers to hold my vagina open, and just stared at it for the longest time. When he started talking to me his voice was really shaky like. He said i had a micro perforated hymen and the membrane was very thick I didn't understand what that meant. He than told me he was going to manually rupture it with his finger and it might be a little uncomfortable. He went on to say that he was doing me a big favor for the future. He said try to relax. Then he placed one hand on top of my mound and stared sliding a finger of his other hand up and down my slit. He started to push it in but it was like blocked by something. That's when he told me to take a nice big slow breath. When i stared to do that he pushed his finger in me really hard. I felt something tearing and then a rip feeling it hurt so bad i screamed and lifted my rearend right up in the air, his hand on my mound pushed me back down. His finger was all the way inside me. It really stung and hurt. I was begging him to take it out. (He done that without wearing gloves.) When he took it out I could not help but notice blood on his finger. He wiped it off on a white towel, then used it to wipe my vagina. He folded it up and placed it on a table. Then he said he needed to look down there one more time. He separated my slit again with his fingers and just looked for a real long time at my vagina. When he got done he told me everything was fine but I might spot a little blood for awhile because the membrane was so thick when he ruptured it torn in four different areas. He reminded me that a patient doctor visit was private and not to discuss it with anyone ever. I noticed there was a big wet spot in his pants were that bulge was. I am thinking he must have ejaculated???? He than gave me a pad for my underwear in case I spotted blood and told me to get dressed. It hurt and stung so bad i had to walk for awhile like a shuffle.
Was this a normal procedure??? Has any young girls been taking advantage of by a Doctor????