It's Now an Obsession

How I've become obsessed with my son's dick

I have to share this obsession somewhere. Maybe I can get it out of my head

I've always known my son would be hung. A Mom knows.

A few months ago I gave my now 14 yr son a gummy. And he fell asleep in the bathtub. I found him, half hard cock in one hand and phone playing FNAF porn.

It's been awhile since I'd seen him "full monty". But he still has, what I call, the perfect mushroom tip. Bigger then the base. You know the kind. His Dad has it. He is girthy still. And still has massive balls. And Yeah.
Now I've found myself obsessed with the idea of trying to see him hard. Or even more. Again.

It's gotten to the point I've thought I've pulling one of my Dad's moves. He once bragged to his nephew how he groomed me. He tried again at 16/17, but I was stupid and turned him down. He was drunk all the time. And naked all the time. And I was already a cum slut (but didn't know it). And he was technically my adopted dad. But I didn't respond. I could have been fucked nightly. Have actually been knotted by now.
We bred dogs. My Dad knew I was a k9 addict. You'd think as he was on his death bed he could have asked? He knew our shitzu had a decently big knot. And my son was c section. My pussy is tight. Or even my asshole. But I chickened out. Even though I knew he wouldn't deny me.

Now he's dead. And I'm currently obsessing. How long and hard is he really? Half cocked? I'd compare to a roll of quarters. Length wise. Not sure on girth. I'm starting to doubt my memory.

Currently homeless in a motel. I keep trying to catch him in the middle of the night with wood. Any luck I've had, his Dad has also been awake. And would not approve.
I've tried peeking at him in the shower.
I've tried to forget all about his cock. But I can't. And what then? Once I know how big he is? What if he catches me and isn't down for it?

Ugh.
I just don't want to regret not knowing.

Because I don't want to break the under 14 rule, I am leaving an email for any QnA that could break that rule.

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