Me and my brother

Just a girl here I have a something I need to say ..
When I was younger and his puberty. I was a very horny girl . I would see boys and think I wonder what their dicks look like started watching porn now and then . Then masturbating . I have an older brother we always use to be home alone while our parents were at work . One afternoon I found myself look at him and wondering then I was like wut the hell am i doing . But over the days I would still look at him and one day while I was playing with myself I started think about him fucking me , the thought of it was so hot i would only rub my clit but thinking of him fucking me I started to finger my self , one finger slow then fast then stoped then I was thinking about how it would feel him opening me up I put 2 in I came so hard after I felt so ashamed and dirty I feel like someone was watching and they knew what i was doing. But everyday like clock work I would go to my room lock it and masturbate thinking of him. While he was home in the next room I would fantasies about him opening my room and catching me and fucking me hard. I did that for weeks . Finally it was to much I wanted it I started being really nice like to him j would hug him tell him i love him . Or go in his room while he was on his bed and pretend I was wrestling with him just to rob my pussy on him . On night I went in his room no panties and asked him if we could watch a movie he said yes so we were on the bed watching I pretend to fall asleep he didn't wake me he put off the movie and put off the light later that night I woke up he was asleep I was like I want to see what he looks like so I slowly uncovered him he was hard I slowly pulled it out and for some reason I couldn't hold back I slowly put my face next to it while look up nd him to see if he would wake up I slowly licked it then put it lil by lil in my mouth he finally moved and I pulled back my heart thumping in my chest I stayed there looking at him for couple seconds not knowing wut to do then I was like fuck it I want it so I'll do it I went back in started sucking this time not slow looking up at him he finally wake up and saw me he tride to sit up and pull away and he said what are you doing and put a hand on my head to push me off I grabbed his hand and forced my head on it while he push on it with his hand everytime I pushed I felt his dick jump he saying ok stop then I felt his hand ease up a lil and then he just submitted till I heard him say fuck ! I pulled off and was like wut ? He grabbed my head and pushed it back on his dick this time with both hands and started face fucking me it was my first time so I was gagging the more I gagged and tied to pull away he would force my head back then he cam in my mouth and pulled out he looked at me I saw the shame in his eyee said sorry and got up quietly and left