32F craves abuse and kinks

I have been this way since I can remember. I liked movies with women tied up and on rare occasions could see them abused (even if not overtly on camera). My little pussy would get soaked. My panties were so wet walking home. At 15 I met a guy, a man really 22 years old. He was super handsome and before long made me give him blowjobs. I mean made me. He took me to a motel, and was going to fuck me and I couldn't do that, I was still a virgin. So he told me that I was going to strip naked, and give him a blowjob AND I would swallow. At the time I was 5ft. 5in tall as I am now. I am a natural brunette, and like my girlfriends at the time, I was shaved between my legs. My boobs were 34B, are now 34C's with rosy nipples. I have especially sensitive nipples. That first boyfriend took care of that. The first thing he did was tell me to spread my legs while standing for him to "inspect". I begged him not to break my hymen and he said he wouldn't. His cock was 7 inches long, not too thick. He rubbed my bare pussy and looking me in the eye just said "Grow it all back in, totally full, no trim, all of it!". I did it. He played with my tits, and pinched my nipples very hard, I almost cried begging him to stop. He wouldn't. Then he released, "Feel that, feel how good that is now that I've stopped?" he asked. I did then he pinched again with twists involved. I did shed some tears. But after going about 3 weeks every night to the motel with him, only not getting twisted when I was bruised for 3 days. He was right, hard nipple play feels good to me. During that time I would blow him at least twice a day.

Then he told me on my 16th birthday that he was going to fuck me. I again begged not to break my hymen. He got mad about that asking if he wasn't good enough to fuck me. I told him no, I just wanted to save it for marriage. "Look you little fucking, blowjob whore, you're gonna get fucked tonight. So I'll let you pick it. Do want to get fucked up your tight little ass, or in your virgin pussy? IT's up to you". He promised he'd keep eating me out but if all I was doing was giving him BJs he'd have no need to keep giving me orgasms with his tongue. So I held my head down, both of us naked, and laid down on the bed on my stomach. I said one word "butt". He fucked me twice that night cumming up my butt. He buttfucked me for another two months, also getting BJ's from me. Then he wanted it too bad. He got me drunk and high in the motel. He gagged my mouth with my panties, tied my wrists to the headboard, and then rope around each ankle, my legs were hauled up and tied to the headboard too. That is how I got my first fuck in my pussy. My boyfriend raped me. I was crying and he slapped me and told me to act like I enjoyed it. He slapped me many time, pinching my nipples more, and more, harder and harder and on my first time getting fucked, getting raped I had an orgasm. After he came in me, he called me a skanky slut and left me there while he went out to get some drinks. He came back fucked me again, then brought in 3 other guys to watch. He made me give them each a blowjob then he let them watch while he buttfucked me again.

After him I had another boyfriend. One who had fucked me two times in gangbangs that first guy arranged. By now I was 19 or 20, moved in with him and once that happened he took over. I came in once late and he immediately slapped me around, punched me in each boob 5 times, bruising them. Then bent me over the bed and buttfucked me, slapping my ass and my face the whole time. After he used his belt on me till I hurried into the kitchen to fix him a meal. I sat quietly, naked and watched him eat. While he was eating dessert he spread his legs, and motioned to me to get down. I sucked him off at the table. He was then making me thank him each time I let him relieve himself using my body. If he smacked me around, or used his belt on me, or punched me in my tits, ass, pussy, belly I had to thank him everytime. Then he took me into the bathtub, dressed in my nightie and peed all over me, in my hair, face, my tits, my pussy, legs, everywhere.

It was him who took $2000 from a dominant couple to use me for a week. I had to clean and cook, do laundry, bathe them, dress them, suck him and her, let them both fuck me anyway they wanted. She when we were alone, stuck a 3inch thick dildo up my ass. "My husband likes you ass too much, so i'm gonna make sure it's too fucking loose for him to like fucking" was her excuse. After two more trips there two weeks each she got what she wanted. In response for her obliterating his favorite of my holes to fuck. He tied up up together in a 69 and made us eat each others pussies while he took turns whipping our asses with a switch he had. Both of us had broken skin, I still have permanent scars, so does she. I quit the boyfriend and moved in with them. I got all the abuse I liked and more. Both of them would pee on me, they'd have other swinger couples over and everyone could use me as they wanted.

Now I'm in my early 30s, my boobs sag more than they should mainly from being abused and punched so hard so much I think. I drink pee, love getting power fucked in my ass, mouth or pussy. I am not with the couple anymore, they got divorced when he knocked up some 17 year old. Both the wife and I fucked her too, just to teach her a lesson. Sometimes she still comes over. I have 3 guys I see, none are nearly as dom as I want or need. I got one to pee on me once, and he wouldn't do it again, said it was too dirty. Hell that same guy won't even buttfuck me for the same reason. "You shit from that hole, I don't want to stick my cock in that" he said. It's hard to get the kind of rough abuse I like. She knows what I like and does it but it's not the same with out a cock to finish the punishment.

I think I' may be stuck with her though. She brought over a young boy, a virgin teen with whom she made me have oral, vaginal and anal sex as much as he wanted and as often as he wanted. He loves watching me sit on the stool and pee though. But I didn't realize she switched out my BC and I think I'm pregnant.