My Suspicions About My Daughter, Made Me Remember Being Molested

I was molested and fucked when I was young. I read a story on here that brought back a lot of memories about my daughter and myself.

I was married with three kids. When our daughter Brandy was 14, I saw her sitting on her bedroom floor one day with her hand under her dress, inside her panties rubbing her pussy with her eyes closed. I didn't interrupt but, I was curious.

On another day, I walked by her room and she was playing with her Barbie and Ken dolls.

They were naked and she had Ken sucking on Barbie's titty. She was softly saying, "Mmm, that feel so good." "Suck harder." Now, I was more than curious. I started watching and thinking about how I was molested when I was 14. I remember how I was developing and mom told me how I would be experiencing hormonal changes.

I sure did experience them too. Evidently our neighbor Robert, knew about little girl's hormone changes too. He also knew how to get little girls into his house and touch us just the right way. That's what he did to me anyway. I had a feeling, I wasn't the first or last little girl he had molested.

I remember thinking how I loved that, even though she was 14, she still loved playing with her Barbies. It's a form of fantasizing, which I did when I was young. But now, I think she was using them to fantasizing about sexual feelings and things she was herself experiencing. I wasn't really worried but, like I said, curious.

Now, Brandy and our two boys, always spent Friday night at their grandparents house. My husband's mom and dad. That gave Luke an I a night out for some time to ourselves. Every weekend we took them, dropped them off and picked them up Saturday around noon.

Something else I knew, Luke's mom and dad slept in different rooms because, he snored. And, when Luke an I first married, his father raped me twice. Once in my home and once in his. He was such a womanizer and was always grabbing me whenever he got a chance.

He would grab my titties, my pussy and say nasty things to me. I always kept my distance from him but, at times he'd find a reason to get me by myself, behind a wall or something. Then, one day he came by our house and actually raped me.

Luke had given him a key that I didn't know about. Luke did it for safety reasons and Jake used it for his way to rape me. I was caught off guard and he is a much bigger and stronger guy compared to me. I never told Luke. We'd only been married less than a year an I didn't wanna destroy my marriage or Luke's relationship with his dad. Not to mention Mary.

Luke was an only child an I loved his mother, Mary. She would have been devastated. I didn't want that. I don't think she had any idea how much of a womanizer and cheater he was. Then, about 2 months later I went to their house to get some things for his mother because, she was in the hospital.

Jake was supposed to be working with his brother, doing tree trimming on his brother's property. I went to their house and was getting things out of her bedroom when, in walks Jake. I was raped again. He knew I was gonna pick up things for Mary. He spoke to Mary on the phone and she told him I was there getting her stuff.

I tried fighting him off but, it was useless. Jake raped me twice that day. He fucked me so hard. While I was trying to fight him off he slapped me and told me to, "Take my fucking dick and shut up." I just laid there as he talked such filth to me and pounded my pussy. He cum right away and said, "Don't move, I'm fucking you twice
today since nobody's here and my dicks still hard."

He kept his dick inside me and molested my titties as he tried to kiss me. I keep pushing him away. He said, "I don't care if you won't kiss me, I just want this tight pussy." He cum in me again and let me get up off the bed.

I told him if he thought he EVER tried anything like this again, I would call the police and expose his sorry ass to Mary and Luke. He never touched me again. I never saw him do anything inappropriate after that. Even when we were alone, he did nothing, not even spoke an off word to me after that threat.

But, with Brandy coming into her own and doing what I saw her doing, I was now wondering if Jake was doing something to Brandy. I found out that she was sleeping with grandpa sometimes. I thought, what a perfect set up for him.

I ask Brandy why was she sleeping with grandpa when she had her own bed to sleep in. She said, "Grandpa rubs my back and gives me a massage." "We talk and he tells me so many things he's done, he's interesting momma." "He makes me feel so good when he rubs my body and squeezed my skin."

"What does he rub honey, your back?" "My back, arms, legs, feet, everything." "How does that make you feel honey?" "It makes me tingle all over." "Has he ever touched you in your private area?" "Just a little." "What do you mean?" "He touches one spot on my flower." "It gives me the best feeling I've ever had mommy."

"He touches your clit, huh?" "Yeah, that's what he calls it too." "Yeah, I know that's a magical spot, Brandy." She giggled and said, "It makes me twitch and jerk around in the bed when I get that feeling." "That's when grandpa tells me to cum all over his fingers." "Then what happens?" "I get real wet down there and he slides his fingers in the wet and asks me if it felt good."

"It does feel good doesn't it?" "Yeah momma, it's the best feeling ever." "I know baby, I know only too well." I hugged her and remembered how wonderful I felt when Robert, molested me. He stood me in front of him as he sat on his couch. "Turn around and let me show you something sweetie."

I turned around sideways and he slipped his hand under my little dress, down into my panties and started rubbing my clit with his finger until I had my first climax. I was afraid but, so excited by the feeling I let him. Then, I wanted it again and more.

I was so caught up into my own memories, Brandy walked away to go to her room. I sat there wondering what I was gonna do and how was I gonna do it. I knew both sides. I loved what Robert did to me, just like Brandy loves what Jake's doing to her.

But, I didn't want him fucking her, she was my baby. Not to mention, he had a big thick dick he'd be fucking her with. I'd had that dick. It was too big for her size. Maybe that's why he hadn't fucked her yet. She was small for 14.

I went to Brand's room and ask her if grandpa used anything on her skin when he gives her these massages. She said, "Oh yeah, he makes me take off all my clothes, so I don't get the massage oil on them." "Then he rubs you all over." "Yeah, it feels so good." "Have you ever had a massage momma?" "Yes baby an it does feel good."

"Grandpa massages my nipples real good." "He said, someday I might want to nurse my baby whenever I have one so, I need to pay attention to them." "How does he do that exactly?" "First he sucks on them because, you have to get them wet so the oil will soak in, then he massages them." "I see."

I thought Jake's slick, I must say. He knows how to entice a little girl. As I sat there, I realized my pussy was wet. I got mad at myself. I need to protect my baby from this paedophile. Do I threaten him like I did before with the cops? It would destroy Luke and Mary. It'll also make Brandy feel guilty.

I know that because, several years ago Robert got caught with another little girl an it was reported how the little girl thought it was he fault. I would have thought the same thing if he'd got caught molesting me because, I loved what he did to me.

I wish I had one simple thought but, I didn't. I needed to tell Brandy she shouldn't be letting grandpa do this to her. It was wrong and illegal. I needed to tell her she shouldn't sleep with him either. I was gonna have to tell her many men are paedophiles and even though little girls are tempted and may even like it, it was wrong.

I can just imagine what I'd thought if mom told me that when I was getting thrilled by Robert's touch. I wouldn't believe her because it felt so right. It was Friday an I tried to get the kids to stay home but, they moaned and begged me to let them go to grandpa's house. So, off they went.

I thought about it all night. I could picture him talking and telling her how wonderful she is and how much and good she makes him feel. I'm sure he's cumming some way. I wonder if she's jacking him off. I should have ask about that.

The next time I got to talk to Brandy I did. I said, "Remember what we were talking about how grandpa makes you feel?" "Yeah." "So, I was wondering what you do to make grandpa feel good." "Oh, he has me lay on my side and he puts his thingy between my thighs and slides it through my legs as I rub the head." "Then what?"
"Then, he pushes forward and it spits out this slimy white stuff." So, he's naked too?" "No, he wears his boxers and pulls his thingy out of the door in front."

"Oh, I see." "He told me when I get bigger he'd have me do it another way." My innocent girl. I thought, her mouth ain't big enough to get around his dick or I'm sure he'd have her sucking it.

Luke an I were talking one night about a news report we'd heard about paedophiles. I ask him if he'd ever fucked a young girl?" He said, "I'm ashamed to say yes I kinda did, when I was 19." "I fucked a little neighbor girl who, a friend of hers told me she had a big crush on me."

"I thought she was 16 an, my dick was always hard when she came into our garage and was talking to me." "She had on a swimming suit, told me she was going to the pool and wanted to know if I wanted to go." "I was home alone an remembered what her friend said so, I put the moves on her."

"Moves, what did you do?" "I walked up to her and kissed her, untied the strings to her bottoms and fingered her. She wasn't a virgin but, she was so tight, I turned her around and fucked her right there." "She didn't resist very much and when I finished she rushed out of the garage."

"I found out she was 14 and thought, wow she had tits bigger than my mother." After we had Brandy, I thought I fucked a little girl." "I kinda felt bad." That was all that was said. I couldn't imagine telling Luke about his father.

Week after week, I let my kids go to grandma and grandpa's house. I told Brandy she needed to sleep in her bed at their house or I wasn't gonna let them go anymore. "Why mommy?" "Because, I don't want grandpa to hurt you." "He would never hurt me momma, he loves me." "Yes, he loves you but, he's not allowed to have sex with you."

"We don't have sex mommy." "What he's doing to you when he gives you a massage is called child molesting."
"Brandy, the next step is sex, intercourse." "That's when he puts his thingy into your flower." "Mommy, it would NEVER fit into my flower, grandpa's thingy is way too big." "Yes honey, I know." "That's why I'm telling you this now.

"Because that's what grandpa wants to do to you." "Remember when he said he would show you another way?" "That's the way." Brandy looked terrified. "Mommy, that would hurt." "Yes baby, it would hurt, it would hurt a lot."
She hung her head. I told her when he would do that to her, he would force her an it would be awful. I told her what her grandpa was an explained it to her. I told her sex is something she shouldn't be having sex until she was older.

"But, he made me feel so good momma, how is that wrong?" "Feeling good isn't wrong, it just wrong when older men take advantage of little girls and that's what grandpa was doing to you." "It's called grooming." Then I ask her if he'd had her do anything to him.

She told me he, was having her lick his dick while he jacked it off. He wanted to cum in her mouth so she let him and he made her swallow. I ask her, "Did you agree to that Brandy?" "I did when I sat on top of him and he just had me licking it." "But, then he licked my flower and told me to lick his thingy."

"And what happened?" "When he got ready to squirt his stuff out he held my mouth against the head as it squirted." "He told me he wanted me to let him cum in my mouth and when I did he said swallow." "Then he told me to lick the head off."

"Did you like that honey?" "No, but he kinda got mad if I didn't do it like he wanted." "I didn't want him mad at me so, I did it." Grandpa said, he makes me feel good so, I needed to make him feel good too." "I'm gonna talk to grandpa so, from now on you sleep with grandma or in your own bed, hear me?" "Yes mommy."

I told her, if you ever think about letting him do anything to you, just think about how bad his thingy would hurt you when he forces it in your flower. She said, "Oh, I don't want that momma." "His thingy is fat."

I felt like a hypocrite. I loved myself being molested from Robert but, I'm telling her to forbid that exciting feeling from her grandpa. I know she will be wanting that from him.

That night I woke up dreaming when Jake fucked me. I'm embarrassed to say, I cum three times when he raped me. I hated he made me cum because, he knew it. That was some of the nasty things he said to me. He said, "You just cum on my dick, you little slut." "You're not such a little goody two shoes after all are you, you loved daddy's big cock fucking your pussy."

I'll never forget how snide he sounded when he said that to me. I felt like trash. I remember him putting his dick in me an I spread my legs. He thought it was a come on, that I wanted it. The fact was he was pinching my thigh. His comment about that was, "Ah, you want this dick don't you honey, you're spreading wide for daddy."

We were at their house for Sunday dinner and I got a chance to tell Jake what I wanted to tell him. I told him, "Jake, I know what you're doing to Brandy, she told me." "I'm calling the cops and reporting you tomorrow, you've crossed the line an it's over." "Then, I'm telling Luke everything."

He said, "No, you can't, please don't." I was shocked at his request, he seemed sincere. "I'll never touch her again, I swear." I walked out and didn't say a word. He kept trying to get me alone to talk to me. Finally, he did in the kitchen. "Please, don't tell, I swear I'll never do anything wrong again." "Please give me a chance." "You better never let her get in hour bed or you in hers EVER again."

"I won't, I promise I won't. He held his chest and seemed to be having chest pains. I said, " One chance Jake, that's it." I walked away.

I guess his chest stopped hurting and he told Brandy she was getting to be a big girl and shouldn't be sleeping with grandpa.

I never heard or suspected him after that. Brandy told me she missed the touching. I bought her a vibrator and showed her how to use it. She said, it's amazing how it makes her feel. Just like grandpa but, faster. We laughed and things calmed down.

I know she'll remember those feelings, just like I still do