Need Advice – Is My Daddy Raping Me?
Hi, I’m not really sure how to word this. But I need some advice. My name is Becca and I’m 11 years old. I live with my daddy out in the countryside in a large fancy house hours away from the nearest person. My daddy moved us here after he got in a fight with mommy. She didn’t like how much time daddy spent with me or the type of games we’d play in my room or at night. I remember the last day we were with mommy, she and daddy were yelling and shouting. She said something about calling the police because he was… a pedo? I don’t know what that is. All I know is that daddy had me pack my things before we left in the middle of the night. We were in such a rush that I was still wearing my special silk nightie that he got me on my 10th birthday.
Since then, it’s just been the two of us here in our nice house. Daddy said he got this house after his grandpa passed away and never told mommy about it. It’s big and fancy with lots of tall trees and bushes surrounding it on all sides. It’s full of fancy wooden furniture, has an amazing home theater, large bedrooms, a swimming pool, hot tub, and all sorts of other things that make me feel like a princess in a castle.
But that’s not really what I want to talk about. I need some advice about my daddy. I love my daddy so much. More than anything or anyone in the whole world. I love him so much that sometimes it hurts weirdly enough. I love how we spend every moment together. From our snuggle time to our games where we pretend to be different people like doctor and patient or husband and wife, to our chases through the yard and in the pool. Every moment with my daddy is amazing.
But lately… our time together has been getting weird. Sometimes when we play games, he touches me on my kitty or on my butt. At first I thought it was funny, something he did when we pretended to be married, acting the same way he would with mommy, but lately he’s been doing it more and more often and no longer when we just play House. Each time it sends weird tingles from my toes to my cheeks and if he does it a lot, my the tingles become overwhelming. Not only that, but when he does it, he looks at me weirdly. His face loses its smile and he stares into my eyes with this almost scary and hungry look. It gets really bad at night when we go to bed together.
I used to think us going to bed together was something really special that daddy wanted us to do that normally only mommy and him do, but at night when we go to bed he gives me weird kisses and touches me even more. When he kisses me, he keeps his lips on mine for a long time and sometimes even pushes his tongue into my mouth. It’s really icky, but like his touches, it sends weird tingles through my body. And his hands, when he kisses me, his hands are all over my body.
In those moments at night, I’m the most scared. I’ve tried to tell him to stop, cried to him that it was too weird, but he just grunts like an animal and gets rougher. His hand will slip under my nightie and begin to rub circles around my nipples with the other one going down to touch my kitty. The tingles get really bad then and I feel like I’m going to explode. By then I’m so scared, all I can do is brace myself as the tingles send my body into a terrible shake and I let out a squeal.
After that my daddy gives me one last kiss and tells me that I was a good girl before pulling me into his chest to sleep. By morning time, he acts like nothing changed at all and goes about the day as usual. Each time I feel a bit scared of him, of what he’ll do, but with that warm smile of his, I feel calm and safe… until the night comes around again.
I’m really confused and not sure what to do. I need some advice. Is my daddy doing something bad to me? I love him so dearly, but I can’t make out what he’s doing to me. I’ve heard that people aren’t supposed to touch your privates… that it’s called rape. But this is my daddy! He wouldn’t do that?
Maybe… is my mommy right? Is daddy a bad man?
I don’t know what to do. Please tell me what I need to do!
#Abuse #Incest #PreTeen